Reiki

Hmm well I have learned and officially been initiated into the first level of Usui Reiki. energetic healing systems like Reiki and Pranic healing are not common knowledge but there not kept secret either. Well anyway I've done two quick healing sessions on people so far (Not going to name them obviously) and results have been very favorable. I'll keep trucking see where this goes.

Trust?

Trust is truly an odd word the root meaning behind it an even odder concept to me still.

"Trust:-reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence."-Dictionary.com

I don't have the time to actually research the root language this word comes from but It's a very peculiar term I find myself thinking of often as of late. I mean...Trust having surety or confidence in a person or thing. It's not my desire to come off as pessimistic but when I speak any word whether it be a curse or trifle I do so with my voice carrying pure intention, but trust its very definition stating you put full confidence and faith into something...?

It's a word invoked far to often and I could with much gumption argue that its a fools term though I could never succeed in such a debate for deep in my heart I do trust very few things though I will not name all here. Myself included in these things? No! And any reasonable person of wisdom shall say the same. Me who cannot exercise full control of my habits at all times or heed to my personal promises cannot trust myself. And before any immature person seeks to judge me, I can with full confidence say too look into your own hearts and find these very same things ring true within as well unless you have mastered your mind completely, and I've yet to meet someone who has done such. I do however trust things about myself, my voice being one only because of brutal lessons in the past where I myself betrayed a betrayer thinking it would remedy the situation but only fueled further fires which have not to this day ceased. Through the passage of time my voice has been tested countless times again and I can proudly say that silence of secrets is something I have mastered (Not that anyone reading this should take my word for it let my actions speak) a trait I honestly have never seen reflected to my personal standards in any other person I've met.

But what of discipline? Mental, physical, and emotional?

Not yet.

Though I could put infinite miles between the word not and yet but I choose not to because in my mind Trust can be broken down in degrees and I have faith and know that one day I shall reach the level wherein I can say I do trust myself. I believe our actions are written but I also know that we have the power to change our destinies through willpower alone. And I carry this knowledge as my optimism, eternally scattered about my thoughts lest I foolishly forget.

And of family, friends, associates, including those which are yet to come? Time will tell. I've put my full faith in people in the past but it always ended with sour disappointment having only myself to blame for this, for I was the one who gave them this trust in the first place. But in my life until recent years I've been reclusive. Mentally and emotionally more so than physically, so socially I have missed out on many things. But as with my own optimistic trust in my own progress it would be selfish if not negative to not also hold it also for those around me...and I prefer to keep my mind only on positive frequencies.

What a school life is,

Marzuwq A. Muhammad

Future, Present.

New Blog, first real attempt at serious blogging, anyway.

In latest news that I can make public about my life a good abbil and I, Gambino to be specific have begun a new project in which we attempt to make a live auto-biography which will be told in the third person through me.

Me myself as an intellectual am more interested in seeing how this will play out and evolve over time. I know from reading auto-biographies (i'll refer to them simply as bio's from this point on to save myself from typing so much.) that they have one fundamental flaw, there strongly bound to the dimension of time. You see when an author begins a project like this and begins recording notes and reaches what could be called an "end" to a bio there are still many pages that are left unwritten or are told directly from the subjects final point of view of the past not from the raw struggle which we all call the present, which reveals the passion of our lives an not just the end result via memories. Unless the person unfortunately dies during the actual scribing of such a book of course. In short I want this technique or protocol to be copied and spread (if its not already present in some form) as it will be a valuable tool for future generations to look back in history and sip from our cups instead of a history books...

For anyone reading this it's important this technique be used via a third person perspective and written by someone other than the subject to discourage egotistical boasting, with the subject of course keeping a personal journal to unite both with a 360 perspective on there trials, life, journey, whatever you wish to call it. If all goes well this experiment shall be fully live within the span of a few days I look forward to seeing where it goes.

Peace,

Marzuwq A. Muhammad